The Ship You’re Afraid to Burn

Surrender · Matters of the Soul

In 1519, a Spanish explorer named Hernán Cortés landed on the shores of Mexico with roughly six hundred men and eleven ships. Ahead of them lay an unknown, overwhelming future. Behind them sat the ships that had carried them safely across the ocean — and every one of those ships was a promise that retreat was still possible.

So Cortés gave the order to burn the ships. Burned. Dismantled and sunk. However it happened, the message was unmistakable: there would be no turning back.

I’m not telling that story to celebrate conquest — history is messy, and not every historical figure is a model for our lives. But there’s a principle buried in that shoreline that I can’t get away from, because I’ve watched it prove true in my own heart again and again:

Maybe you know exactly what I mean. You say you trust God. You say you want His will. You say you want to be free. And you mean it. But quietly, tied off in the corner of your harbor, there’s still a ship — kept ready, just in case.

The ship we keep “just in case”

We rarely keep the ship for dramatic reasons. We keep it out of fear. Just in case obedience becomes uncomfortable. Just in case faith turns out to be harder than we expected. Just in case the journey takes longer than we planned.

So we keep the old identity available. We keep the old fear available. We keep the old wound, the old excuse, the old escape route — all within reach. And every time life gets difficult, we glance back toward the harbor, and part of us begins calculating how to sail home.

Here’s the honest diagnosis I’ve had to accept in my own life:

Paul understood this. Writing from prison, a man with plenty of past to look back on, he said: “Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on” (Philippians 3:13). Notice he doesn’t say the past disappeared. He says he forgets it — he refuses to keep it anchored where it can pull him backward. You cannot fully embrace what is ahead while remaining emotionally anchored to what is behind.

Jesus said it even more directly: “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God” (Luke 9:62). It’s not that the backward glance disqualifies you from God’s love. It’s that you cannot plow a straight furrow forward while your eyes keep drifting toward the harbor. Divided attention plants a crooked field.

Commitment changes the moment retreat is gone

Something shifted on that beach when the ships went up in flames. The men could no longer pour their energy into planning an escape, so all of it — every ounce — had to be invested in finding a way forward. The conversation changed. The mindset changed. The focus changed.

The same thing happens in us. As long as retreat is an option, a part of our heart stays reserved for it. We hedge. We keep one foot on the dock. And a divided heart is an exhausted heart, because it’s fighting two directions at once.

This is the part we get backwards. We wait to feel surrendered before we act surrendered — as if one day the fear will lift and letting go will finally feel safe. But surrender rarely feels safe in the moment. It’s a decision made in the presence of fear, not the absence of it. “Whoever wants to save their life will lose it,” Jesus said, “but whoever loses their life for me will find it” (Matthew 16:25). The losing comes first. The finding follows.

A word on the soul

Here’s a truth I keep returning to in these matters of the soul: your soul makes a wonderful servant, but a terrible master. Your feelings, your fears, your need to understand — give them the wheel and they will steer you straight back to the harbor every time. Hand them to Christ as passengers, and they finally serve the journey instead of sabotaging it.

You’re not losing your anchor — you’re trading it

Here’s what fear never tells you when you’re standing on the beach with a torch in your hand: burning the ships is not the same as being left with nothing. When you let go of the harbor, you are not cut adrift. You are finally free to be held by something far stronger than a ship.

Scripture calls it “an anchor for the soul, firm and secure” (Hebrews 6:19). And that’s the beautiful irony of surrender — it feels like you’re releasing your grip on everything, when in truth you’re only releasing your grip on the wrong thing.

The old ship — the fear, the shame, the regret, the identity you’ve outgrown — was never an anchor at all. It only kept you tethered to a shoreline God was calling you to leave. Paul described the exchange like this: “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me” (Galatians 2:20). That’s not the language of loss. That’s the language of someone who burned his ships and discovered he’d been carrying dead weight the whole voyage.

Pick up the torch and burn the ships

So let me ask you the question I’ve had to keep asking myself: What’s still anchored in your harbor?

Maybe it’s fear. Maybe it’s shame. Maybe it’s a failure that still whispers your name, or an old version of yourself you keep available just in case God’s future doesn’t work out. Whatever it is — as long as it stays tied off nearby, there will always be the temptation to sail back.

Freedom begins the moment you finally say, “I’m not going back.” Not because the future is guaranteed to be easy. Not because every question has been answered or every fear has disappeared. But because you’ve decided that God’s promise is greater than your past.

Pick up the torch. Turn toward the harbor. And trust Him enough to burn the ships. And when the fear rises — because it will — remember where your security actually rests. Your security isn’t found in the strength of your faith, but in the faithfulness of your Savior. That’s what Anchored Behind the Veil is about.

Go deeper than a blog post

If this stirred something in you, my book walks through what it means to live anchored to God’s faithfulness instead of your circumstances — and how to stop letting your soul captain your life.

How to actually burn it

Naming the ship is the hard part. Burning it is simpler than you think — it just refuses to happen quietly.

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